Everything is going right, and you have succeeded in the Course. The magnification of fear and guilt indicates that what you are doing is working, all the prayers, surrendering, applying the daily lessons, and being vigilant for God.
As stated in the Course, "The closer you come to the foundation of the ego's thought system, the darker and more obscure becomes the way."
The ego's house is a dirty foundation based on a belief in suffering and separation, and it will do everything and anything to stop you from experiencing the Light of your Divinity.
Imagine an old, run-down house with rooms, stairs, and tunnels. You have yet to learn how many rooms and far down the tunnel goes, so you must deal with one room at a time.
The deeper you go with cleaning with the Light of the Holy Spirit, the more vicious the ego becomes.
It wants you to stop, but you must keep going!
Resist nothing as it attempts to dredge up your worst fears. Allow everything, as it brings all you thought you had already undone into your mind.
You know it will go for your weakness and will do everything to stop you from continuing.
The Course encourages, "To the ego's dark glass, you need but say, "I will not look there because I know these images are not true."
Keep going, Holy Son of God; hide nothing! Do not be immobilized by cold sweats of fear. Believe not the ego's story of terror; take the hand of Jesus Christ and walk on through it.
Do not be tempted to abandon Him outside the ring of fear, as He will lead you safely through and far beyond.
Die to the little self and stay with the Holy burning onward to God.
Do not turn back; do not look back. Let the Transformative Light of the Holy Spirit burn away all concepts. Go beyond being the body to Eternity.
And from A Course in Miracles.
"⁵The closer you come to the foundation of the ego's thought system, the darker and more obscure becomes the way.
⁶Yet even the little spark in your mind is enough to lighten it.
⁷Bring this light fearlessly with you, and bravely hold it up to the foundation of the ego's thought system.
⁸Be willing to judge it with perfect honesty.
⁹Open the dark cornerstone of terror on which it rests, and bring it out into the light.
¹⁰There you will see that it rested on meaninglessness, and that everything of which you have been afraid was based on nothing."
Foundation for Inner Peace
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